Wednesday, February 22, 2006

won't you help to sing, these songs of freedom...

"feel the rain on your skin
no one else can feel it for you
only you can let it in
no one else, no one else
can speak the words on your lips
drench yourself in words unspoken
live your life with arms wide open..."

and for that 15 seconds...i am free.


Tuesday, February 14, 2006

happy singles awareness/valentines day...

so today is the dreaded singles awareness day, or for some, the anticipated valentine's day. i'm a lover everyday so I don't know why we need a day to show someone we love them? on the other hand, i often wonder if i would feel the same if i actually had a significant other on this day? hmmmm...something to think about. dating in general can be hard but dating in san francisco is excruciatingly painful. um, instant boyfriend please? unfortunately life doesn't work that way, which leads me to the age old single woman's i destined to be alone? now i know, i'm only 24. but where i'm from, most are married and on their way to the family and the white picket fence by now! i'm not looking for all that, but hey, sometimes you just...want. at any rate I have three options:

1) i could sit at home and eat comfort snacks and watch old school love stories (this is one of my favorite pastimes)

2) i could go out with some single ladies and have drinks and see where the night leads. hopefully to some hot foreign man.

3) my co-worker chloe is trying to get me to go the this "speed dating"-esque party for singles.

*although i adore chloe, i really don't think 3 is an option for me but I threw it in there for good measure.

and what might you be up to this evening? well, whatever you do, i hope you have a day filled with all things beautiful! i am so thankful for all of the wonderful people that reside in my heart and for being a part of your life in whatever form that relationship takes...


-fun little tid-bits cause i am a disgustingly romantic cheesy-poof woman-

find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot . . .
. . . who calls you back when you hang up on him . . .
. . . who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

wait for the boy who kisses your forehead . . .
. . . who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats . . .
. . . who holds your hand in front of his friends . . .
. . . who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on.

wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, ". . . that's her."

your candy heart says "first kiss"

you're a true romantic who brings an innocent hope to each new relationship.

you see the good in every person you date, and you relish each step of falling in love.

your ideal valentine's day date: a romantic dinner your sweetie cooks for you

your flirting style: friendly and sweet

what turns you off: cynics who don't believe in romance

why you're hot: you always keep the romance alive

how you are in love

you fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.

you tend to give more than take in relationships.

you tend to get very attached when you're with someone. you want to see your love all the time.

you love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

you stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

Thursday, February 2, 2006

letters from an inmate...

so i got a call from my dad today. well, step-dad actually but who deals with technicalities when its family right? a little background: my dad is a political prisoner who in 1983 was on the FBI's top 10 most wanted list, and was then caught and given 60 years on false charges. that's a brief version, if you really want to know more check here. he's been in jail my entire life, so all of the memories that i have of him always begin with him walking around that iron gate with that khaki uniform on. pretty trippy, but hey, we all have our own realities and that's mine.

anyways, he's been in the atlanta maximum security penitentiary for the past 10 years. well, today they moved him to florida. I realized that for the past 10 years, he hasn't been outside of an enclosed 2 mile radius. he's missed the birth of the internet and the cell phone among other things. but, for a couple of brief hours, while being transported from georgia to florida, he soaked up the last 10 years of LIFE while looking out of a bus window. when he called me, he said, "it was good to see freedom".