i'll fly away...

thank you so much for taking care of me san francisco...i'm going home.

after 2 years of festival, parades, late night burritos, crack head drum circles in GG park, movie in the park, all night jam sessions, and all other sorts of bay area goodness with you, i'm going home. back to the great state of texas. back to lazy days and warm nights. back to hot summers and no fog.

i've been thinking about it for a while now. going back and forth, not wanting to leave such a great city, not wanting to miss out on all the great cultural aspects of SF, not wanting to just run away from hardship, and always, always, not wanting to leave THE most amazing people i've been honored to call friends.

the last couple months have been kicking my ass! life shit we all go through but a little too much of it at once for this common girl. a lot of of growth and growing up. alot of amazing and beautiful experiences. many immediate lessons i have learned and distant ones i have yet to grasp. i'm just exhausted and tired y'all! i feel like i've lost half of my light in this process and i know some of you have felt in one way or another. i gotta get back good. as my girl allison says, it takes time. so, i'm going to go home to MAKE be still and try to give myself that time. re-energize. remember who the hell i am and where i come from. and most importantly, eat my grandma's bisquits ;-)

this isn't an easy decision and i, in fact, want to take it all back as i type this. my stomach is twisted and i'm afraid. but, i've got to do something differnt and doing what i want hasn't been working out so well of late. i've put it off going back and forth with decisions, but that very fact lets me know i need to be still and breathe and i just can't here. not right now at least.

so many things that i'll say later in a long-winded mass of mush, and also want to do something to bring everyone together before i leave.

i did want to let you know what my estimated time of departure (pending $$...of course) is around August 3rd. so, if you're around and have a free moment between now and then, give me a call. i would love to shower you with hugs and kisses, tell you how much i love you, how amazing you are, how you've made my time here so very special, and how much i'll miss you...

all love always,

nzingha

ps: don't worry san francisco, you haven't seen the last of me.